I browse Youtube.

Let's face it. A lot.

Considering that I have nothing else to do.. and that apparently I feel a sense of dejection and self failure.
I blame it on my break up..

Fucker...

Fuck that.

But anyway. So I was browsing teh tubes and I came across two things; one funny and one not funny that made you go "wtf srsly?" [if you like Batman and/or Batman Begins.]



Funny: [Just because it's random and jokey-ish. It brought a smile to my face.. and I was having a pretty stupid day and in a real, "eat me" mood.]



Okay. That was that.


Not Funny [I didn't even know there was a live show anywhere... much less one with dancing.. >.>]


Chya.. nothing else to do.

I wrote a story last night for my next year creative writing class.
It's pretty sweet.
I got distracted though..in the middle of it. So i decided to add Tim Eng as a character.
The scene is meant to be a serious conversation..leading up to sex.
I got bored and didn't want to write about sex so I wrote about Tim instead.
I don't have the story now..but I will post it after. It makes me quite amused.



----------------------Edit------------------------
Here's the story. Yay.


"They stepped through a crimson looking metal door and into Brae's elegantly furnished apartment. Upon entering the room, Alyssia detected the smell of the rain that was pouring outside. The room seemed much cooler than the hallway. She suspected that one of the glass doors to the veranduh was left ajar. Braedon placed his hand carefully on her side and led her from the doorway into the room. Suddenly, a young asian-german man named Tim Eng appeared from one of the large bedroom closets. He was dressed in one of Brae's silken bathrobes and a pair of patriotic looking madrass pants. Tim was holding a J. Crew catalog and a pint of poweraid. He seemed more twitchy and paranoid than usual. Alyssia, being the sophisticated doctor that she is suspected he was not only drunk off his ass, but high. Brae stared at him with discontent. "WHY ARE YOU HERE?" Said Brae, "I told you to get out like..weeks ago. I told you..if you can't pay your rent then you get your ass out of MY pent house." Tim stared at both Brae and Alyssia now. His blood shot eyes looked soft pink in the dim lighting of the apartment. He shifted slightly to his left and focused his attention on Alyssia. "Hey..you're kind of hot!" He said to her. "Maybe we should..uh..go somewhere sometim- hey that necklace is really shiny! Can i see it!?" Tim advanced toward her with his hand outstretched. Alyssia slapped his hand away rather fast. Brae was getting madder by the minute. Fucking dumbass, he thought. Although Alyssia rejected his interesting advancement, Tim was relentless and began talking to her again. "Heyyyyy..no baby..i didn't mean it like that...GOD why does everyone have to be such a bitch around here!? I'm tired..and hungry..my head hurts...JESUS...it's really..aghh.." He continued to complain about his job and his car and so forth for another 10 minutes. Both Alyssia and Brae were now very annoyed. "GOD I'm hungry! Does anyone know where I can get some decent Chinese food around here...is there a Panera up in here?" Tim began again. "I believe theres one down the street..so..you might want to go try that...now..." Alyssia muttered. Her voice was over powered by Tim's relentless yelling. "THANK YOU! SEE, BRAE! AT LEAST SOME ONE CARES!" He focused his attention back on Alyssia. "Hey babyyyyy come with me i can show you a REAL good time..ahaha..WHAT I'VE GOT YOU GOT TO GIVE IT TO YOUR MOMMA. WHAT I'VE GOT YOU GOT TO GIVE IT TO YOUR POPP-" Tim was cut off by Braedon taking a flying leap at Tim's fragile body. Brae, being the strong, manly vampire that he is could tolerate nonsense very little, and being fed-up with Tim's musings, decided to tear his tiny asian-german body to shreds. I guess Asian's shouldn't fuck with vampires. "


I really heart teh Tim Eng, though. I have a soft spot for him. He's pretty interesting.

Dear Starbrighte,

You should really learn how to handle yourself in certain situations. Especially ones that concern friends who you would freaking hate to lose. But the ones you feared losing, like, three months ago, you already have. You just won't admit it to yourself that you probably will never see them again and its all your fault. You wanna know why his sister messaged you via myspace? It's because you're stupid and you just put people down for no apparent reason because things don't go your way sometimes. Heaven forbid they don't call you back right away! You have like, a fucking anurism. You really should just walk your ass into oncoming traffic, you incompetent moronic son of a bitch. You need this. You need the biggest reality check ever. She was right. You DO need to grow up. Really. You act like your in fucking fourth grade still. That is so grammar school. Literally. Whatever. THINGS CHANGE. PEOPLE CHANGE. THEY GO AWAY. YOU DON'T TALK FOR A WHILE. IT HAPPENS. IT DOESN'T MEAN ITS THE END OF THE WORLD! fucking hell. THIS ISN'T FRESHMAN YEAR ANYMORE. GET OVER IT! You just need to come to the realization that it's NOT HIS FAULT THAT YOU'RE LONELY or whatever the fucking hell you think you are. You know what you are? You're selfish. I bet you're worried that he won't ever talk to you again. AND YOU SHOULD BE CAUSE HE PROBABLY WONT BECAUSE YOU PROBABLY PISSED HIM OFF SO MUCH THAT HE HATES YOU. Christ. Really. And it's your fault. Stop brooding about it, Jesus. You make me sick. I bet you're worried about what his sister thinks about you too. And even his family for that matter! She had every right to message you. You know why she did? ITS BECAUSE YOU WERE BEING STUPID AND SELFISH AND SHE COULD REALIZE IT FASTER THAN ANYONE ELSE COULD! You take advantage of what people try to do for you. You oversee the good in everything, and you only focus on the bad stuff, and what they DON'T do for you. You should be happy that he even made the effort to talk to you sometimes, when he could. You should just be happy that he didn't block you yet. Stop messaging him and trying to talk to him. It's not his fault that he doesn't want to talk to you anymore. It's yours. You gave him a reason not to like you. This is what you wanted, isn't it? Stop trying to pretend that nothings wrong. Don't even lie. You know whats wrong, but you won't say sorry to him. Oh yeah, okay, you tried. WHATEVER. That was so insincere when you said it. I wouldn't have believed you. Thats probably why he didn't either. Haha..why are you upset now? Did he sign off on you again? He's giving you the cold shoulder. IGNORING YOU. I bet that hurts. But whatver, cause you did it. You just checked his sisters away message again. You're avoiding the situation, aren't you? WOW. This is pathetic. Ohhh you know what else i bet pisses you off as hell? The fact that he doesn't talk to you anymore, but that he talks to your friend Christina, and his friend Ellie talks to her too. I bet you hate hearing her talk about it in study everyday. Oh man, I bet you were mad today when she was talking about Ellie. Oh man, you must have been PISSED X's 10. You are so selfish. I bet you're pretty much crying by now. You should be, because everything you do makes everyone elses life bad. You know, in olden times, children like you were left to perish on windswept crags. Yeah, thats right, I said it. Tee hee, you're getting mad right now because you can't remember how to say it in Latin. Hehehe It's funny when you get mad. But this is all besides the point. Actually, there was not point to this. You just needed a reality check as hell. If I were you, I would be begging for forgiveness to his whole entire family. Wake up, kiddo, this isn't getting any easier.


♥ Love, Common Sense.





Dear Common Sense,

Wow. W....w...wow. I have no words. That was really, really harsh. Thanks for implying that I should commit suicide. That makes me feel great. Meh. Um. Okay, So I guess i could have been being selfish. I don't know. It's possible. I don't really know what to do now. I tried apologizing, but I'm not very assertive, so I don't know if I did it correctly or not. I'm really unsure. (Obviously.) Oh wow. I am a huge loser aren't I. Meh... I don't even know what to say to that. I guess you're right. Maybe I should do something about it. I Basically just got pwned by my own common sense. Loverly.


♥ Love, Starbrighte.

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